I can't tell you how many times lately I've opened up a new post only to stare at the blank space. I have so much on my mind right now that I want to talk about and I just haven't been able to.
This sort of just plays into a lot of my worries lately. I came across a page on Facebook through a friend of a friend for a young man that died a few months ago. His baby girl was 2 weeks old when he died. And just seeing some of the posts from the people who lost him really got to me.
Life could end in a second. You can lose the people you love without rhyme or reason, and it scares the hell out of me. There's someone in particular in my life that I desperately want to be closer with and it just seems so impossible... but I'm afraid something is going to happen before I get a chance to make things right with him.
I guess it ties into being afraid that I lost any chance I did have of reconnecting with this person through my own mistakes.
I've always felt that life is too short, don't waste your time being unhappy. Seize happiness wherever you can find it, and don't let go. Today was just a hard day for me emotionally, the last few weeks have been that way really. I think it just hit me hard, seeing that group and having it strike so closely to what I have going on.
I don't even know if this makes any sense. I need to go to bed.
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