The last few weeks have certainly been filled with ups and downs. But things have gotten better, I'm moving in a direction that I think will be good for me. The last two-ish weeks particularly, I've had a lot of time to think and gain perspective on life.
I had 14 hours of thinking time when I randomly decided to go to North Carolina and visit my best friend two weeks ago. I was headed to work on Monday morning and thinking about all of the stress and unnecessary drama in my life. Why make things more complicated than they have to be? That tends to happen to me a lot if I'm not careful. The more I thought about it, the more I wanted a couple of days away from everyone and everything in PA. Given that I didn't have to work again until Thursday night, it seemed like a great idea to take off for a couple of days and go visit my best friend who I've not spent nearly enough time with.
I've also said many times that I was going to go visit her and hadn't. So I went to work, went home, showered and threw some clothes in a bag, and I got on the highway. It only took about 7 hours to do the 450 mile trip. And I truly enjoyed it. The whole experience. Courtney lives right outside of Charlotte, and so while she was at work Tuesday I went and walked around the city and took pictures. The architecture is gorgeous and the city is super pedestrian-friendly. I'm in love with it. Pictures will be posted at the end of this.
So anyway. I've had a lot of time to think and get my brain in order. And ever since last week, I've been walking around with this feeling of contentment. Yeah, there are irritations and problems in life. But I'm happy. I'm getting my degree (in December, HOLY COW!!!!) and working my way towards a "big girl" job. In the meantime, I've got a job that I don't always hate and a pretty awesome place to live and friends and family who love me.
Even though sometimes it is to my detriment, I love my sense of independence. I was talking to my gram yesterday and told her about going to NC, and she told me I had a lot of guts. I was like... why? Haha. Apparently embarking on a solo, spur-of-the-moment road trip 450 miles away and then walking around an unfamiliar city by myself is "gutsy". I'm sure some would say stupid, but I like gutsy better. Haha.
At any rate. I'm genuinely blessed. And like I said, I've got this contentment thing going. For once, my control freak tendencies are nowhere to be found, and I've been able to let go of the things that I can't control. Why worry about things that are out of my hands?
One thing that is in my hands is my own happiness. I'm done letting other people control that. It's my life, I'm going to do things the way I want to do them. And now, I require some coffee and potentially a late breakfast. I'm suddenly struck with the urge to be reasonably productive.
Sweet hanging plant thing. I want one. |
Random church that just struck me. |
Mosaic mural on the side of a building. Love it. |
There are more pictures on Facebook, but these were a few of my favorites.
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