Friday night and I'm bumming in my sweat pants. For now anyway. I may go somewhere a little later, but for now I'm content here on the couch with my laptop and the Food Network. Hoping I'm not going to get sick, haha.
I've got a lot on my mind these days. It's nearly internship time, and that's pretty important. A lot of places hire interns on after they're done with their hours, and most places won't hire without experience, so that's valuable in the business world. But what do I want for myself? Six months ago I was sure, but now I don't know.
Is restaurant management really where I want to be? I mean of course every industry is going to have pros and cons, but do I want to put in the long hours and deal with all of the annoyances and difficulties that come along with a restaurant? And do I want to own my own place and have to sweat and worry and put up with the sleepless nights associated with owning your own business, or do I want to manage for someone else and have them breathing down my neck on a daily or weekly basis?
So I really need to figure it out. But then part of me feels like an internship is designed not only for experience in a chosen field, but also as an experiment. Maybe for me, it needs to be more about getting the experience in a restaurant (as my GM has already told me I can do my internship there with her, which would make my life easier) and seeing if it is something I think I can handle.
Of course, nothing is set in stone, I can always switch careers later in life or whatever if I'm unhappy. But I'd rather find my place in the world kind of quickly. I'm over this transitional period of my life, haha. Not much longer though. December can't come fast enough. Not that I'm wishing away my summer, no no no! I can't wait for warmer weather and long, sunny days.
I am so not designed to live in Western PA. I belong where it's perpetually warm and sunny (or at least more often than it is here) and I can drive maybe an hour to get to the ocean.
Wishful thinking. For now, I'll settle for a good ol' PA summer.
I have the strangest thoughts sometimes. Just FYI.
One last little blurb for the evening...
I'm not the most musically talented person. I can't really play an instrument (except maybe sort of the flute-- 4 years in school) and I'm not a great singer (only in the car, by myself or when I'm drunk), but music definitely plays a huge role in my life. It can make or break my mood, it can inspire me, it can take me down memory lane.
There are songs and albums that I have on my Zune that as soon as I hear the first few seconds, I'm taken back to another time in my life. I enjoy that. Lucky Boys Confusion, Lostprophets, and Finch take me wayyy back to sophomore year of high school. Every Avenue takes me back to this time last year. Some of it's good, some of it's bad. I don't know what brought this up right now, except its something that has been on my mind the last few days. Admittedly, since I found the Every Avenue- Picture Perfect album under my car seat. Combine that with all the stuff that's been going on lately, the people who have been coming back out of my past at me, and you've got a seriously broody moment.
At any rate, time to go put decent clothes back on. I just don't think bummy sweatpants and my Northgate Swim hoodie are going to cut it. And no, I don't know anyone who went to Northgate, or was on the swim team. Random acquisition.
Gonna go spend some time with a person who makes me smile. =]
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