I've been sadly lacking in the blog department lately.

In some respects, this month feels like it has gone on forever. In others, it feels like it has absolutely flown by.

I've honestly been struggling a lot lately. I need to make some changes in my life, that's for sure. It would appear that my internship has done it's job (I'm finished with my hours at the end of this week) and shown me that I do not, in fact, want to be in restaurant management. At least not at this time. It just isn't for me. And honestly, I feel like the stress and pressure and expectations that are put on me by both myself and my boss are unrealistic for my position and and unhealthy.

I don't cry. Ever. But I almost did last night. Because of my job, because I feel pressured and stressed and I hate making mistakes and being reprimanded. Not that anyone enjoys being reprimanded, but I tend to take it way harder than most. I don't think I should have to cry over my job, or lay awake at night and worry. It's starting to seriously affect me. My heartburn is back full force. I toss and turn when I sleep. I'm in a bad mood more often than not, and it's starting to affect my relationship with Andy.

All of these signs point to one thing: time for a change.

So that's what I'm going to do. I've got to work it out in my head and figure out where to go from here, but look for some serious change coming soon, in both the job and home areas.