Countdown to the semester's end...

I should be doing homework. Which seems to be when I blog most frequently. However, I do have an excuse this time. The Angel website for Penn State is experiencing "technical difficulties" which means that I can't even access any of the homework I need to do, because my professor posts it all on there. Yes, I am currently panicking over all of this. But there's not a damn thing I can do about it. So I blog instead, and hope that my professor is feeling cheerful enough to give me an extension.

Wow. So I go to all the trouble to email him asking for an extension, and he emails me back and says no, because I've already met the course requirements. This, of course, puzzled me. I know I have not written a paper for my Leadership class yet. As I am pondering this, preparing to write a response that politely tells my professor he doesn't know what he's talking about, I find out from Amanda that the Leadership paper isn't due until Friday. My professor thought I was asking for the paper due today in my other class with him, which I've already done 2 papers for and thus, met the course requirements. I feel really stupid right now, but I'm going to go ahead and blame it on the overworked/overtired/burning the candle at both ends thing I have going right now. Hell, at this point, I'm starting to feel like I'm melting the middle too.

But at least I don't have to freak about my paper and the fact that the Angel website was down, completely negating the fact that I've been up for almost 3 hours now. I also have coffee, which should never be taken for granted.

So. Life as it is right now. I work a lot. 40-ish hours a week at Primanti's and every other weekend at the Elks club bartending. It's easy, the bartending I mean. Very simple, no complicated mixed drinks, no draft beers. Only like five kinds of beer period. Easy pricing system, and cash only. It's very laid back, the people seem cool so far, and I really can't complain about it.

I also go to school (at least until the end of this week, and then HALLELUJAH it's over until September). Which sucks, and as illustrated by the above story, isn't going all that well. I apparently can't even keep my due dates straight any more. All I can say is, I don't know how I got through this semester. I know that my grades aren't stellar. Pretty much all B's this semester, which I'm not exactly proud of. Last semester, I made the dean's list. But in addition to this one being more challenging due to classes, I think I toed the line of overextending myself.

I may weep in sheer relief at 4pm on Friday. Yeah, I have one final next week. It is, quite honestly, the least of my worries. I have one paper and 1-2 rewrites I still need to do, in addition to the other crappy homework assignments for the rest of my classes this week. But then I'm done and my life can become infinitely simpler and involve more time to myself.

The biggest bright spot in my life right now is, of course, Andy. I could never have hoped for a better relationship. I'm not going to be delusional and say that we'll never fight, or that things will never be hard. That would be too much to expect, and definitely unrealistic. But I think our similar personalities will make things easier to deal with because we understand each other so well.

For example, when I got done training at the Elks on Saturday night, I was exhausted. I was exhausted and starving and pissy because of it. Not to mention, Andy is on midnights right now, so I barely get to see him. Overall, I was just in a flat-out bad mood. But I stopped in Center to see him while he was on duty for a few minutes when I was on the way home, because I pass through there anyway, and mostly because I really just needed something to make me smile. He just kind of let me be in a bad mood, talked to me, gave me a kiss, and sent me home to go to bed.

He's the only person who has ever known how to deal with me when I get that way. I don't do that as frequently as I used to, but it still happens, and there really isn't anything anyone can do to make me happy or placate me. I just need to go to sleep and basically reset myself, for lack of a better term. I don't know if he gets the same way, or if he just knows me that well. Either way, I'm incredibly thankful he knows what to do. In the past, if I was around a significant other in that frame of mind, it usually resulted in a fight.

I guess overall, I'm just really feeling like I'm finally where I need to be in that department. If I can get the rest of my life together, I'll be set. Well, I'm off to do some homework now that Angel is back up. Then I'm off to school. Pens playoff game later, and it's a big one! Lets Go Pens!!!!